Hora De Chisme
To start off, in October we lost a family member, but everything and everyone is good. During that time the family was more united than ever. Also in October, I dealt with a personal health issue. I'm currently still dealing with it and learning how to live with it. I'm okay, but it was something I wasn't expecting at that time.
In November, Luis & I became engaged. The engagement was everything!! It was only us two up in the woods. It was nice and quiet, however, I just wish we had someone there to take pictures. Nonetheless, it was perfect. Soon after, all we did was the wedding planning. We had planned to have our wedding in March until Covid-19 happened. November to March was nothing, but stressful times. We ended up postponing the wedding, until when? Good question, we don't know. But of course, the wedding is still happening.
However, we still ended up moving in like we had planned. Luis & I started a Youtube Channel, called Luis and Lizz, where we showed a little tour of our home. Living together is something normal to me because we get along so well. Of course, there are little things that I'm not used to, but we get through it and work together. A new thing for me was waking up early, making lunch, and dinner daily. But I mean here we are 2 months in and we are doing perfectly fine. However, our YouTube fun has come to an end. Luis & I decided to take a break from it, hopefully, we'll be back soon. Me on the other hand, I want to start my own YouTube Channel and I think I just might. I loved the whole concept of creating the thumbnails, content, and editing although I sucked at all of it. It brought me so much joy and it reminded me of my blog. I missed it so much, I truly did. I want to get back to it and I hope I can stick them out! Sometimes I just get lost in the sauce (life).
Towards the end of March, we found out that someone close to me has cancer. It was something very hard for me. I never know how to react. I still don't know. That person has been doing chemo, but unfortunately, cancer has been growing and not slowing it down. It's hard because I would love to visit, but with this quarantine and the condition, I wouldn't want to run any risks. I call here and there to see how he's doing, but it's not the same. I hope and pray everything gets better. Now fast-forwarding to the beginning of the month, I lost a family member due to Covid-19, it hurt me but I'm doing better now. My biggest concern was the ones that it was going to affect. But all in all, the entire family is doing well and hoping for better days.
Now how is quarantine for me?
Biiiiiitch, I hate it. Well I did at the beginning, but you know almost two months in I'm already used to it. I wasn't used to being home 24/7 and not having a car. I felt since the move I've been stripped away from my freedom, but that's because I have no car ): But then I think to myself, why would I want to have a car if all the stores are closed? Ugh, I hate it here. My manz takes me out every other day or depending on the day of course because he knows I cannot be locked in. I try to find things to do around the house but its always the same things. I'm hoping now that I have free time, I can pick up a hobby or two. I just hate that, I want to go to Ross, Marshalls, and Homegoods but I can't. Like I'm sorry but we didn't have time to do home shopping. I know what you're thinking "you can order online" yes I know that, but is it the same? Tell me, is it the same to go to the store and feel the material? Test out the product? Nooooooo it's not. So until then, we will have to live without couches. But yes I know its not the end of the world. I just want couches that's it, but two months and how I said, I'm already used to it.
What have I learned during quarantine?
I've learned so much about myself in both positive and negative. My patience has become so much better than how it used to be. I learned that this is the time to invest in myself. I love baking and creating things in the kitchen whether they come out bomb af or just okay. We recently bought so many baking items, I cannot wait to play with. I also began looking into potentially going to grad school and getting my masters. Its something I'm still thinking about and seeing if its the right fit for me. There are some things up in the air. I'm also in my head a lot during this quarantine. Unfortunately, it's winning. I feel like I'm more negative towards/about myself. I'm my own enemy and I'm trying how to deal with that. I think that is why I have been a little m.i.a in life. I also know that I can't stick to anything because I've been told and as much I hate to say it but its true. I cannot stick it out. I don't know why. I'm hoping to learn about myself more in order to help myself out. I also hope I can be healthier for myself.
Okay, I know what you're thinking... Lizz this is not juicy at all... Well, I'm sorry my life isn't so interesting. I actually did a post I believe in January and it was so RAW and so WOW, but I decided not to post it because I didn't want to deal with the consequences. However, I do want to say that you'll be seeing more of me on here ;) I'm dedicated to posting more frequently on here. I'm still thinking which days to post but until that's figured out, expect random posts from me (:
Thank you for taking the time to read. How has quarantine life been treating you? Any new hobbies? Please feel free to share them.
Lizzeth.
