Hora de Chisme: 2019 New Year Edition

We are almost two weeks into 2019 and time is flying by so I decided to do a little Hora de Chisme. 

Looking back at prior years, I've noticed the things I've done, said, and been too whether they were bad decisions or good memories.  Just reflecting on 2018, it was rough but I also had my good times.  Before you do start reading, I just want let you know that everything is OKAY!  2018 was a fucking a year and it has helped me grow in the best possible way ever.  But in reality, this post is just to express how I feel about the new year, so enjoy.

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Long story short of 2018: 

Spring 2018: I had a mental breakdown the first week of classes, my truck broke down within that same week, and I was going to two different campuses for my classes.  To top it off I was dealing with my own demons and family things.  So, yes Spring semester was difficult but I made it through and passed all my courses with good grades that I was proud off.

Summer 2018: San Jose was too negative for me which is why I decided to go home for the Summer. I worked at warehouse and oh my it was an eye opening job.  It humbled the hell out of me.  But even being home wasn't the best for me, it was mentally draining and irritating dealing with _____, [Too many things to name and I don't want to drag anyone down.]  On a different note, Luis and I became a couple and it was definitely one of my highlights of 2018.

Fall 2018: Booooy where do I start?  The first two weeks of school, I was extremely depressed and I had very dark thoughts.  I was waiting on some results that were the cards to my life.  The results came back and I received the good news and well here I am today, speaking about it.  [No one knows details, except my mom and it will stay like that]. This semester,  I took 19 units (something I've never done before) and that was a bitch.  My finals were tough.  I thought I had failed a class, but I finished off strong and passed all my classes.  I cried of happiness when I got my grades.  I also got a new job that isn't retail in August. However its a love-hate relationship, because the downside of ME having this job is that I don't know how to separate my client's lives with mine.  I go home everyday mentally drain and constantly thinking about their situation, and sometimes it just takes a toll on me. I'm learning how to separate the two but its a process.  I love my job don't get me wrong.  I love helping them and I love when they feel so appreciative of what I do for them.  And the best thing is that I also love the fact that I get the weekends off. Now throughout the semester, I've also dealt with sorority stuff.  & I went home quite often as well.  It was definitely a semester on learning how to balance everything that was basically new to me. 

Now I know I didn't have to share this, but I like too. Let me explain why:

1. It makes me feel good reflecting on the past knowing like DAMN that happened?  How did I do it?

Yes, these problems maybe not seem like they're "big" problems, but to me they were.  Sorry.

2. I like to vent it out to my blog rather than full explaining myself to a person. 

I feel like many don't pay much attention to what I post, so I use it as my personal journal.

3. I look back at my blog and it hella defines, these posts are ME.

I'm an open book. 

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2019, the biggest year yet to come and I am extremely scared. 

Let me tell you what the plans are, what I'm excited/scared about and future goals. 

2019 started off strong.  I enjoyed my time at home and I'm thankful for my loved ones.  Now that I'm back in SJ, I began taking a winter course and working a lot more than I was used too.  Sad to say sometime this past week I already had my first mental breakdown, l oh fucking l.  I was stretching myself out to thin because I was juggling way to much for me to handle, but its okay.  We are moving on. 

Bittersweet moment: If all goes well, this semester is my last semester here at State.  I'M GRADUATING!  Its going to be tough I can already feel it, but it gives me so much motivation knowing that I'm almost done with school.  Which is why I'm taking a winter course and as well a summer one.  I have to do what I have to do in order to graduate.  I might die in the process but I know it's going to be worth it.  With that being said, it will also be last couple of months here.  Once my lease is up I will be going back home to try to get back on my feet. 

My plans for 2019 are to finish school, go home for a mental break, find a job, and be able to grow my mental state.  My biggest plan yet is to better my health because I have found some issues, so healthier choices here I come. But I'm excited to see what the year has for me. I'm excited to live my last months here in SJ and explore the last bit of the Bay Area before moving back. I'm excited to graduate and see my parents' face knowing they have a daughter with a degree, after all our struggles. I'm excited to see my circle succeed and move up in their lives. I'm excited yet scared to see what the year throws at me. I'm scared because what if things don't work out? I know I somethings are inevitable its just always in the back of my head, but this year I'm taking risks and letting the cards play itself. 

But there's more! I have goals for 2019.
1. Travel | It wasn't until the I got with Luis when I started trying new places and experiencing new things. & Honestly, it was such a good feeling and it gave me an itch to travel.  Luis & I were talking about traveling and realized we never fully explored cities nearby.  In February we will be going to San Diego, CA and we talked about Yosemite Park for the summer. But with our schedules we will just see where life takes us.  
2. Save More, Spend Less | Should I say more?
3. Become healthier | How I stated before, I need to become healthier for my own good and learn how to balance things in my life. This is probably my biggest and hardest goal, but its something I need to achieve for myself. 
4. Be more confident | My biggest insecurity is my confidences whether its about my physical appearance, the work I do or how I say things. I always need reassurance and confirmation about everything and its definitely something I need to work on. 
5. Blogging | Alright, I'm tired of saying it and you're tired of read it but at this point...I will continue my blog and I will post whenever I can. My goal is of course to post more but life happens and both my blog and I are still here. 

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Thank you for your time and I hope you got to know me a little bit better. I wish you the best in 2019 and if you have any goals I hope you achieve them.

Thank you, 

Lizzeth  

Sunglasses Collection

It wasn't until a few years back when I got into sunglasses. I used to work at Sunglass Hut and I honestly didn't know much about eye protection until then. I would wear sunglasses here and there but I didn't now its a must. I'm thankful for that job and the knowledge I accumulated, but also for the tiny addiction I have for sunglasses. Here is my sunglass collection in order. 

When I began working at Sunglass Hut all I knew is that I was selling brand name eye wear. During my duration there I only bought one pair of sunglasses because at the time I did not see the point of wasting so much money on a pair of sunglasses not knowing if I was going to wear them frequently. So, the first pair I bought were the Ray-Ban Aviators in the size 62; which are the oversize aviators. I bought them in the brown gradient because I liked the concept of having gradient sunglasses. 

In April 2017, I got into Youtube very heavily and I discovered a Youtuber name Desi Perkins and she had a collaboration with Quay Austrailia and name her sunglasses, "High Key." Off the bat, I fell in love with them, so when she came out with the High Key; Sahara Collection I knew I wanted a pair. My second pair is Quay Australia x Desi Perkins the High Keys: Sahara Collection and I did a review on these pair of sunglasses here.  In that review I talked about how I did originally wanted them in a different color, but I settled with the black frame and orange/yellow gradient. & no regrets since.  

I bought my third pair, when I began working again at Sunglass Hut. When it comes to sunglasses I always have a hard time finding a pair that suits me. Majority of sunglasses sit on my face because I have big cheeks. So, when I found these pair I was in love because I loved every detail about them. My third pair is from Gucci in the style GG0022S. I refer to them as my first babies because it was my first luxury brand I've ever owned. They are in a light turtle brown frame with grey lens.

My fourth AND my favorite pair is as well Gucci in the style GG0010S. They are an all black frame with grey lens. When shipment came that day, I put them on hold right away. The reason why they are my favorite is because they sit on my face perfectly and they are dark glasses overall. The way I see it is like the perfectly little black dress/bag but these are sunglasses. To be honest they are my go to because they go with everything. Best purchase of 2017. 

Working at Sunglass Hut with bad influence co-workers is how I got my fifth pair of sunglasses. It was holiday season and my mother asked me what I wanted for Christmas and I mentioned that I liked a pair of Versace sunglasses and well Christmas came and so did my fifth pair of sunglasses.  They are Versace in the style VE2181; they are black matte frames and grey lens. My favorite part about them is that they are rimless and the bar on top.  [Disclaimer: We are not rich nor am I spoiled that my parent's buy me everything. It was Christmas time and she said I deserved it, Thank You]

So this is where things went bad. Sometime last year, I was showing Magz the new sunglasses Quay Australia x Desi Perkins had came out with and well I am a person with no self control. I was on the website and I didn't know which ones to get, so I got three pairs of sunglasses: Quay Australia x Desi Perkins the High Key; 6). black frames with silver lens; 7). black frames with olive lens; and 8). black frames with purple/pink gradient lens. 

Since my last purchase I realized that I went a little crazy buying three pair of sunglasses all at once, but I love every single pair. I think they're all different in their own way and some I feel are statement sunglasses. And I have a feeling I will be growing my collection this year. ;) But I do hope after reading that you do not think of me as a "brand whore," okay bye.

Ray-Ban Aviators in the size 62 

Quay Australia x Desi Perkins the High Keys

Gucci in the style GG0022S

Gucci in the style GG0010S

Versace in the style VE2181

Quay Australia x Desi Perkins the High Keys

Quay Australia x Desi Perkins the High Keys

Quay Australia x Desi Perkins the High Keys

Thank you,

Lizzeth 

2018: Life Through A Lens (3/3)

I am well aware we are in 2019, but I'm just here to finish off "Life Through A Lens (3/3)" which is a series I did in 2018. Its a small series that shows what I've done and gone in 2018. I hope you enjoy my 

-1/3: January - April

-2/3:  May - August

-3/3: September - December

Thank you,

Lizzeth