I am currently still being caught up on my life in the way that I'm always busy doing something, (in a good way) and I'm still working on myself, (there's some progress). Now for my Summer 18 Bucket List, that has gone down the drain pretty much. Once school was over, I found myself with a whole lot of spare time; which can be a good and a bad thing. A bad thing for me and the worst part was that the hours at work began to get cut, so that meant less money.
The last two weeks of May, I began packing for my trip back home and on my free time I binged watch Netflix: The Ranch, Dynasty, and The Office all great shows (I recommend them). From June 6th to the 11th it was spent in SoCal. In my Weekend Festivities, I talked about how fun it was because it was, but that is because I let the positive override the negative. That weekend was crazy to be completely honest. It was a mixture of my family and friends (roommates and back home friends), I will not get into details of exactly happened, but the only thing that irritated me the most was that I never got an apology of what happened that weekend. It was the most embarrassing thing ever, but at this point I don't care anymore (lesson learned).
So when I went back home with my roommates to ME it was not the same vibes. I felt San Jose as a negative environment as soon as I went back and I knew it was not going to go well. But I knew I had to stick with it because I couldn't runaway from it, but the next day that same Tuesday I went through somethings and I wasn't emotionally stabled; which effected me right after. On June 13th, I called my mom and basically had a mental breakdown saying I did not want to be in San Jose anymore. The only thing my mom told me was, "if you want to come home you can and we can make things work if not then we'll see, but you can decided on your own and just let me know what you decided." At that moment, I was like wow, yeah I cannot go home I have a job and I'm taking a summer course and I need to pay bills.
But Gorl! As soon as I walk into work I see the new updated schedule and hours were cut even more like HELL NAH. Hours were so cut back for me that I calculated and I would not even have enough to pay rent or I would pay rent and that was it. So, I talked to my manager and I put my two weeks in that night. Fast forward to the day I was coming home June 25th: I felt happier and more relived knowing I was in a somewhat more positive environment. I began applying to jobs and days later my uncle ended up hiring and now I work with him. Working with family and men can be something else. Work can be a pain in the ass for me because 1. I'm not used to working 40+ a week. 2. I'm not used to wake up at 5am Monday-Friday and 3. I'm not used to the heavy work. But oh how has this experience humbled me and I'm thankful for it.
Long Story Short: I'm only working one job, no summer courses, I'm back home (The Valley) and I'm happier.
Lets talk about my blog.
Recently I've been going into debate on whether or not I want to continue this. I even took it to twitter and I got a lot of "Nos! and Whys?" I love my blog although by the looks of it you can say otherwise, ha. But to be completely honest, I have no ideas. I don't feel motivated. I don't know what to blog about anymore. I feel like the only thing I like talking about without hesitation is about 'life' but I don't want it to be a repetitive thing? I sometimes feel like my posts can be negative like "Woah, Liz are you okay?" You know ? Which is why I changed the theme of my blog months ago. It used to be La Vida De Lizzy | Beauty, Food, Reviews & Lifestyle to now just Lifestyle. And yes, before you start asking I'm fine. :) So we are still a work in progress.
Lets talk about how the rest of the year is going to look like.
In a month I will be going back to San Jose to finish off my last year at SJSU... Real talk I am scared shitless. I know this is going to be one stressful af year I can already feel it (dramatic? I know). I will also be starting a new job (hopefully no more retail, fingers crossed). I will definitely be more busy and stress, but I'm excited. I'm also slowly learning how to budget, so let's see how that goes. There's not much to be excited about for the remaining of the year, but I'm excited, does that make sense? '
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OOOOH I also cut my hair....okay bye for now.
Until then, you'll hear from me soon!
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